The first several days I cried at the drop of a hat. It's all been too wonderful to handle at moments, and the only way I know how to get myself through the overwhelming goodness is to cry. I mean sometimes I feel so happy that I'm worried I might die from it. :) I also cry when I'm really tired.
We have been so blessed. I mean really truly blessed. I look at my little girl and am in awe at the wonder God has created. She's so beautiful, and the love I'm feeling is so wonderful. It's all a gift that can come from no where else but God. The thing is I'm not just overwhelmed with love for Elizabeth, but I also find myself loving Sean more than I ever have. That was the most unexpected part of all this. I knew to expect to feel a love like no other for my baby, but I wasn't expecting the new love I have for my husband. I just love him so much.

I just want nothing more than to spend every moment with my husband and baby girl. I could hold her forever! I want to freeze time just so we can enjoy her itty bitty cuteness for the rest of our lives. I love my family so much!
I find myself staring at her all day just thanking God over and over again for this gift. She's changed everything. So little else matters to me now. The only way I want to spend my time is with my family. The other day I was thinking about my mother being sick. I know she would love nothing more than to have all of her family living close by again. I always understood that. I mean it makes sense to want your family to spend as much time with you as possible when you know it's limited. But now I understand it on a whole new level. If I had a terminal illness I would demand my baby to be with me at all times. I wouldn't want her out of my arms let alone my sight. She's my child, and I love her like you wouldn't believe! I hope we can be close to my mother soon. I've come to enjoy this area, but it means nothing to me in comparison . . .
The time I spent with my mother this past week was so precious to me. I will always have the amazing memories of entering motherhood with my mother by my side. She was so encouraging and helpful. I cherish that time spent together, and I am looking forward to more!
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Right now my husband is passed out on the couch, and my baby is sound asleep in her basket. I think it's time for some family snuggles. <3
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