Monday, May 14, 2012

It's a Wonderful Life

Since being home from the hospital with our beautiful Elizabeth I have had a flood of emotions!

The first several days I cried at the drop of a hat. It's all been too wonderful to handle at moments, and the only way I know how to get myself through the overwhelming goodness is to cry. I mean sometimes I feel so happy that I'm worried I might die from it. :) I also cry when I'm really tired.

My mother spent the first week here with us, and I don't know how we would have done it without her. She cooked, cleaned, and of course held the baby so we could sleep. Not only was it amazing to have her around to help as I healed and caught up on sleep, but it was the first time we have had so much time together one on one. Well, not exactly one on one, but Libby doesn't mind being the third wheel. :)

We have been so blessed. I mean really truly blessed. I look at my little girl and am in awe at the wonder God has created. She's so beautiful, and the love I'm feeling is so wonderful. It's all a gift that can come from no where else but God. The thing is I'm not just overwhelmed with love for Elizabeth, but I also find myself loving Sean more than I ever have. That was the most unexpected part of all this. I knew to expect to feel a love like no other for my baby, but I wasn't expecting the new love I have for my husband. I just love him so much.






I just want nothing more than to spend every moment with my husband and baby girl. I could hold her forever! I want to freeze time just so we can enjoy her itty bitty cuteness for the rest of our lives. I love my family so much!

I find myself staring at her all day just thanking God over and over again for this gift. She's changed everything. So little else matters to me now. The only way I want to spend my time is with my family. The other day I was thinking about my mother being sick. I know she would love nothing more than to have all of her family living close by again. I always understood that. I mean it makes sense to want your family to spend as much time with you as possible when you know it's limited. But now I understand it on a whole new level. If I had a terminal illness I would demand my baby to be with me at all times. I wouldn't want her out of my arms let alone my sight. She's my child, and I love her like you wouldn't believe! I hope we can be close to my mother soon. I've come to enjoy this area, but it means nothing to me in comparison . . .

The time I spent with my mother this past week was so precious to me. I will always have the amazing memories of entering motherhood with my mother by my side. She was so encouraging and helpful. I cherish that time spent together, and I am looking forward to more!

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Right now my husband is passed out on the couch, and my baby is sound asleep in her basket. I think it's time for some family snuggles. <3

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