Some of this and some of that

Obviously it's been a while since I've bothered to blog. I just had nothing to say for a while.

But . . .

I've had a LOT of down time lately, and let me tell ya, my wheels have been spinning inside that oh so ridiculous head of mine. I've been doing a lot of changing (inside, much less noticeable outside at this point). I guess I've been doing a whole lot of changing for the past 4 years . . . I've been learning wonderful lessons in patience, forgiveness, letting go, and being myself.

Anyway, there are some new things going on in our life. I'm hopefully getting a job soon. My interview is on Thursday. I've been searching for a job since graduation, and not very patiently. Just when I was starting to really enjoy watching TV all the time and learning my lesson in patience . . . :)
I guess by some new things I mean that one new thing. Nothing very exciting has been happening around here. I do think our friends had their baby since my last blog post but most people who read this already know that. That was the highlight of the winter, followed by graduation. Yes, the baby wins. He's so stinkin' cute. We were over there today and he was soooo talkative, and he's almost rolling over. They grow so fast.

Family. We want to start a family of our own. Since our friends' baby came along we have talked about it and thought about it a lot more. Now I think the Mr. wants to have kids sooner than I do. Which I think is adorable. Having children in this area makes me really nervous. Aside from our friends with the baby . . . we have no friends in this area. We have babysitters! I'm sure we could get several of the girls in youth group to babysit for us, but still. I know that when the time is right God will work things out. I have to keep reminding myself of that. God has been faithful to provide thus far and he won't ever stop being faithful.

I'm still lonely here, but I'm getting used to it. I feel like I'm useless here. I haven't been able to be there for my friends in the way that I want to be. On the flip side I am starting to understand and accept the whole "seasons of life" idea. Honestly I think most of my bad feelings stem from having nothing to do during most of my time. It's taken a toll on my self esteem. I have been really missing people from back home. They aren't all there anymore, so I can't run home to them and have it all be better. Growing up stinks sometimes.

I'm currently battling off a cold. My body has been my worst enemy lately (bad things come in 3's . . . so true), but I prefer that to my mind being the enemy.

Oh . . . forgot about a new development in my life . . . I play Halo Reach with my husband . . . that's what not having anything to do has done to me. It's not surprising to me though, I used to love playing Perfect Dark with my dad and brother. It was only a matter of time before I learned to enjoy Halo. It's a great stress reliever . . . oh humanity. I mentioned this because my husband started playing with our friends online without me. I'm going to get a glass of water to quench my thirst and make my throat stop itching, and then I'm gonna get in there and bust a cap.

yeah that's right

I love you friends.