I had one of those days where I was inspired by so many things and so many people. I came up with a new topic to blog about almost every hour today, but now here I am at the end of the day . . . completely overwhelmed.
I feel so defeated by the world today. We live in a very fallen world, and it depresses me. My heart is truly breaking for so many people today. I'm literally in tears at I type. The issues on my mind range from cancer to sex in the media. Yeah. It's been a long day.
(Although I suppose sex in the media is a form of cancer . . . figuratively speaking.)
My day started with the latter. The Christian radio station was losing reception so I started station hopping searching for something pleasantly familiar. Unfortunately I stumbled across Rihanna's new song. It comes to no shock that one of her songs was about sex or that any song on the secular radio is about sex, but today it really got me down. I'm outraged by it. It is so unfair that the air has to be filled with lies and deceit. I mean really?! I was one of the teens who swore up and down that secular music didn't influence me because I knew better. I never acted in compliance with what singers were telling me, but it skewed my point of view for a while. Secular radio is 99.9% garbage.
It is a pipe dream to want famous role models who actually model meaningful lives in their work. STOP SELLING SEX! The sex that is being sold in the media is so incredibly empty and dangerous, and what is worse is people are buying it and leading meaningless lives trying to obtain it.
Go ahead. Search for the most pleasurable sexual experience ever . . . then tell me what your life is worth. Then justify what you spent your precious few years on life doing. Kids (I highly doubt there are kids/teens reading this but) teens, turn off the radio. I do not care if there is some kind of pleasure that inspires Rihanna (Kesha, Katie Perry, Snoop Dog, Enrique, etc.) to sing another nasally melody; it is not what life is about. Life is worth something completely different than what they are telling you. Life is so precious, and too important to be wasted on something so incredibly broken.
I needed to get that rant out of my system. Moving on.
So much else happened between that and what I'm about to disclose and even some things happened after this but . . . for the sake of time and your sanity I will share one last thing.
Cancer.
I have a professor who is dying of cancer, and (ugh crying again) it is so devastating to witness. I mean he's still teaching (obviously) and probably will until he can't find the strength to walk, because that's who he is. He's the type of man who talks about his cancer all the time, and I'm assuming this helps him but it's really hard as a student to listen to the random comments about his cancer. He has head and neck cancer- specifically his throat. He beat it once, but it came back and now he only has a few years left (at least that's what I've heard. He has never actually said if he has been given a time.) He makes comments about his chemo or finds a way to relate topics to cancer which is really easy considering my classes with him this semester are Psychopharmacology and Learning/Cognition. Anyway. During my 12pm class on Friday he mentioned that he had chemo at 1:30. Today he canceled that class even though he came to his office, because his chemo had taken a lot out of him this round. I saw him outside his office an our or so later and he looked awful. At the time I didn't know chemo was why he canceled class- I just assumed it was the reason. My class with him later in the day was taking a test which was the reason he came at all. He entered the class so slowly and with his head down. He had the sniffles, and he looked so incredibly sad. I had a really hard time concentrating on my test because I felt so compelled to pray for him. A few hours later I walked behind him through the parking lot. He was still walking the same way.
I'm bawling right now. Dr. Weathersby is one of the greatest professors I've had. He's so incredibly smart and witty. I've had a lot of classes with him and I wish I could have more. He enjoys every little thing in life. He knows the most random trivia. He told us once during a class several semesters ago that hyenas all have male genitalia and said that gave a whole new meaning to labor pains. He says stuff like that all the time. Funny random trivia. It's wonderful. He also shares a lot of personal stories, the funniest ones I've heard are in psychopharm and are about his experiences with different substances.
I don't know why I take it so hard. It's not like I'm close to him personally. Perhaps it has something to do with Mrs. Diffenderfer and how I never saw her during her cancer. Dr. Weathersby is incredible. He has so much to offer and there are so many students that should learn from him. He's a great person, and it is so tragic that he has this battle with cancer. Please pray for him and his family.
I'm going to stop now.
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